Well, in a previous post I discussed my determination to try to survive the winter without ending up as an uber-depressed puddle on the floor. Well, even though we will surely have a few wintry days still ahead, now that it is March, it comes with hope of spring and gradually warmer days.
There were a few days where I thought it was a little touch and go, but I powered through it, I got out of bed even when I DREADED scraping the windshield for the umpteenth time and skating through the parking lot wearing scrubs, which if any of you who wear them know, you may as well wear a sheet, for all the protection they provide.
I think it made a difference that I mentally prepared myself for winter on the front end. I owned up to the fact that I struggle with this every year, so I built up my winter supply of coping skills. Things that could be pulled out when the shelf grew barren. I made a list of things to do when I was bored or lonely or whatever.
I have blogged, vlogged, crafted, and danced my way through the darkness. I have depended on the therapeutic element of music. I planned my summer vacation (California!) in January, giving me something BIG to look forward to. I learned I was going to be an aunt for the first time to a nephew, another big thing to look forward to this summer!
I am also grateful to nerdfighteria for being awesome. I am actively seeking to find the awesome in everyday and the positive effect this has had on my mental health is incalculable.
If there is one thing I have learned this winter, it is to keep your mind open to the future’s possibilities. Even though I have NO FREAKING CLUE where I will be or what I will be doing in the next year or in five, I DO know that within that time, some amazing things could happen and I want to actively work to ensure that they do. Sometimes doing something that seems mediocre or boring or annoying can be viewed in retrospect as something great because it helped ensure that the awesome stuff happened later on.
When I was in school, there were days I hated it. It was often boring, difficult, and frustrating. I couldn’t wait for it to end.
Now that I’ve been out for 5 years I look back on those years with a different perspective. As I write this I am sitting comfortably on a couch that I paid for, eating food I bought, using high speed wireless internet in an apartment I am able to finance independently. As much as I sometimes complain about this or that I am pretty freaking fortunate! (Thanks to a very wise coworker who recently reminded me of this!) None of that would have happened unless I got my education so I could be qualified to do the job that I do! Even if I’m not sure where I am planning on taking my career, at least I have one to work with! Realizing all of this awesomeness makes me look at school as an awesome thing, even though there were days I didn’t think I could make myself go even ONE. MORE. DAY. I am glad I did. I am glad I powered through the difficult times to achieve the awesome.
The same applies to now. Everyday is a new opportunity. An opportunity to make the future just a little bit better, just a little more awesome.
I still have a lot to work on, but I feel like I am on the right track!
Till next time! DFTBA!